I am thinking about hosting a studio sale next week, and the shadow side of me and this industry is lurking over my shoulder. Over the course of the last few years, I have sent countless invitations to my mailing list and others, seeking guests and supporters for visual art events. After too many undersupported offerings, the energy to send another invitation is weak. It is obvious that there is constantly more than enough going on in every household, and that getting people to show up takes a special attraction. It occurred to me over these recent years that what I was offering must not be “remarkable,” or, I am simply inviting the wrong people. The catastrophe that this scenario created in my mind crippled me, and I am just now beginning to walk on my own again.
I’m not sure yet if I’ll send the invite tomorrow for a studio sale… I may just have to sleep on it. I am grateful for the many wonderful gifts and people that put the “lack” into perspective. Art is hard.