Free Painting Friday

I gave away a painting today to lighten my load, and bring a small amount of completion to a mountainous collection of incomplete creative cycles. (My wife suggested $50 Painting Friday.) I also gessoed over two paintings that were exhausted, and started making a stack of paintings that will meet their final resting place in a fire soon. I have only ever burned two paintings, but it seems like now is a good time to release another few. There comes a sickness with these psychic attachments to things/paintings, and I can no longer suffer from that condition to the extent that I have subconsciously suffered. The friend who claimed today’s giveaway stepped into the studio and was immediately taken by the amount of painting inventory that I have amassed. He mentioned that he thought I should be proud or something… accomplished. Well, there’s some sense of something positive, but it’s awfully colored by the other, heavy feelings surrounding the ownership of so much unfulfilled desires. It’s a conundrum, and I am pledging to work my ass off to remedy the illness and reduce the symptoms. “Art and the End of Suffering” hangs in the balance. I’ll have a hard time finding space to navigate that project while the Weight of Incompletion continues to crush me in the most quiet of ways. Onward, soldiers!